My friends....they are...insane. Well, insane is actually a very good word for them but i love my friends to death. I never really thought i would be losing them this quickly though. Sometimes i feel like my head is spinning so fast from all the constant drama, and then other days life is so easy. Maybe that's the way its supposed to be, i don't know, but i don't like it. Some of my friends stopped talking to me altogether because i don't party every night with them like i used to. I guess i was just the good "drinking buddy" to them. First of all, i never ever ever wanted to be the crazy drinker, but really never wanted to just be the "drinking buddy". I'm okay with drinking every so often, as long as Sky is taken care of and i don't have to come home that night, but every single night? No way, I'm a mother. Sorry lovely friends, i have a thing called responsibility now. They don't understand it, but you know, oh well.
Its not them I'm too terribly upset about losing. Its the ones that have been there for so long, and now feel like i don't have time for them. Okay, i know how it feels to just want to hang out with someone, and it seems they have time for EVERYTHING else, but you. So, i would get how that would hurt. But its just like, again, okay, i have a child now. I cant hang out every day, i cant be on the phone every second of the day, and I'm sorry but, a one year old does demand most of my attention. It sucks that they think I'm just "too busy", it really does. Mostly because i do nothing but take care of her every day like a good mother does, and i would like to go out sometimes, but i cant. So, that's that.
Then there is the guy thing. Why is it that every guy is not good for me? I just want to find one good guy out there. It seems like all the good guys are just taken, or non existent. Or too young. I think the worst part of this is that i do have a baby, and no guy wants to take on that kind of responsibility. This is a whole different ball park though that I'm so not wanting to type out.
The bible says that God will not give you more than you can handle, so I'm hoping everything calms down at least a little soon, because this is all becoming too much for me to handle. The things i write here are sooooo minor with some of the things I'm actually dealing with. But the little things i do write on here are contributing to everything. When i ask for advice its usually "pray about it". Well, I've prayed about it. What now?
Its not them I'm too terribly upset about losing. Its the ones that have been there for so long, and now feel like i don't have time for them. Okay, i know how it feels to just want to hang out with someone, and it seems they have time for EVERYTHING else, but you. So, i would get how that would hurt. But its just like, again, okay, i have a child now. I cant hang out every day, i cant be on the phone every second of the day, and I'm sorry but, a one year old does demand most of my attention. It sucks that they think I'm just "too busy", it really does. Mostly because i do nothing but take care of her every day like a good mother does, and i would like to go out sometimes, but i cant. So, that's that.
Then there is the guy thing. Why is it that every guy is not good for me? I just want to find one good guy out there. It seems like all the good guys are just taken, or non existent. Or too young. I think the worst part of this is that i do have a baby, and no guy wants to take on that kind of responsibility. This is a whole different ball park though that I'm so not wanting to type out.
The bible says that God will not give you more than you can handle, so I'm hoping everything calms down at least a little soon, because this is all becoming too much for me to handle. The things i write here are sooooo minor with some of the things I'm actually dealing with. But the little things i do write on here are contributing to everything. When i ask for advice its usually "pray about it". Well, I've prayed about it. What now?
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