falling forward as she walks toward the light...

So.... my best friend is leaving tomorrow. normally writing helps, but, being in the state I'm in now, i dont think that it will. Anyway, she's leaving tomorrow at like, 7AM, and I am dreading it, to say the least. She's pretty much been my strength. She's been there as i let things, and people, go. She's been around to remind me what i'm fighting for, and, shes just been my goofy as heck, best friend. Im going to miss her like CRAZY. she doesnt have normal breaks like all the other college students, because she's in so much stuff. i think mostly choir is what takes up most of her time. Anyway yeah, this sucks, and im not feeling any better. the end.

Letting go...

Recently my message has been to just let go, so, i have been letting go, a lot. Its hurting much more than i thought it would this time. I've let go of a former love, three friends, and now I'm about to let go of my real friend, but in a different aspect. She's just going back to college, still, there goes my source of strength. I'm just, so confused. Why would God ask me to let go of everything and everyone, when, now I'm just more down. I don't completely get how that works, but then again, who is able to get how God works?