What's up?

People ask you whats up? and what is a normal response to "whats up?" nothing. I realize that every single day when i say "nothing" i want to say " a hell of a lot of something." So, since I'm hoping no one really reads this, i will answer the question to "whats up" Well, i was doing awesome for a while in my walk with God. I mean, i was praying on a daily basis, and reading my bible. Everything was going good, then everything started going bad. Like, seriously, every time my walk with God is good, everything else goes to hell. I thought everything was going to work out with school and all that, when now its seeming impossible again. And to make a long story short, i feel like I'm going into that dark hole again. The one that seems impossible to crawl out of. I feel like I'm just hanging on for dear life so i don't fall in, but I'm losing my grip. I wonder if anyone else even has this problem. It seems to me that every ones life is just so dang peachy around me. And I wish them well, its just that, i really wish there was just one day with no drama. I'm getting back into the things i was in before, and i just don't want that with my life. I have a daughter now. Someone who looks up to me with those tiny, beautiful blue eyes. And i live for that little smile every single day. I don't know whats going on, but hey, that's whats up.